girl from the north country

caravels @ 2009-10-21T16:55:00

2009-10-21T20:56:03Z

there's nothing i'd rather do right now than to bring justice to this ONE particular cunt in the form of a bash to the skull. ohhhhhhhhh good lord, i am RAGING.

caravels @ 2009-10-04T15:15:00

2009-10-04T19:32:28Z

i've tried updating my journal every day for the past week, i just cannot think of what to write in here. my life for the most part has not changed, and what has changed isn't worth mentioning. although i can't stand my school/state/situation, i'm very happy, and i have max to thank for it :) what i really need is some motivation, or a hobby. i really want to start sewing again. i want to make a romper, or a corset (extreme! i know but it would be so much fun!) i also want to start using my camera more. i've been saying this for a couple of years, but i really really mean it. i think getting a new lens for one of these up coming holidays will refresh my interest in photography. basically i just need to stop wasting my time.

and how have you been, babies? i always read everyone's updates, i just never really comment. tell me stuff!

ew watching food newtowrk, they just mentioned a french fry stuffed sandwich, or "sangwich." nast.

oh god

2009-04-13T20:18:22Z

bitches need to keep my name out they mouf, stop taking out their insecurities on me, and get a life. i'm sorry you're so bored. try crossword puzzles.

caravels @ 2008-12-28T15:40:00

2008-12-28T20:45:57Z

these past two months have been cray cray. lots of ups and downs (none of which were my fault) and i've grown closer to so many fantastic people. katie's wedding was beautiful, christmas was fantastic, i got to meet max's aunt & uncle and i love the shit out of them, and now it's all finally over! i'm done with school until may or april or whatever, i am just so relieved. everything's over. fantastic. now i can focus on spending my time with people i love, not letting anyone unwanted infiltrate any of my time, and work and make some $$. i can't wait.

~all i want for xmas~

2008-11-19T18:11:49Z

punk posh convertable clutch

wii fit

ray ban small wayfarers in red & havana

skull candy headphones

boots boots boots

caravels @ 2008-09-30T21:15:00

2008-10-01T01:30:31Z

basically, my life as of late has consisted of the following-
driving driving driving, kisses, loving max, new york, short hair, sex, wiped out hard drive, not smoking weed :(, cuddle nook, comfy beds, not ever working at starbucks, gym sometimes, no school, sex, crying whenever i see a ~*~*MCCAIN PALIN!@@!!!!*!*~*~*~ sign in someone's yard, movies, it's always sunny in philadelphia, bagels, honey moon beer mmmm.

to elaborate on the more important issues;
max and i are in love. shut your mouths, i don't care how obnoxious i sound. we just are. he's perfect, i honestly can say that i will never love someone the way i love him. i truly feel i knew him before all this. and it just all came together so perfectly for me. our families love each other, his parents are my spare set, every thing's just perfect. there's so much love in my life right now, i am so thankful.

we came back from our 2nd trip together to new york last week and we had an amazing time. we stayed in this kick ass 2 story brown stone, i can't even begin to describe it. if i ever up-load the pictures, you'll see it. don't count on that. basically, max and i had the first floor to ourselves, which led out to a beautiful court yard. oh it was precious. and right by broad way (w94 and columbus to be exact) one day, we went to the museum of modern art, then to whole foods to buy lunch and then to central park to eat our lunch. it was so great :) and i love him, as i've mentioned above.

oh, and i'm voting obama. and you should too. and i really have no reservations in saying that any mccain supporter is just fucking moronic. at this point, i really could never care. max's family and my mom want to move to canada lol :( and i fucking will if that old cancerous mother fucker and his god damn idiotic eskimo barbie shit get into office. oh girl, i am HEATED about this election. shiiiit.

caravels @ 2008-09-08T19:40:00

2008-09-08T23:45:06Z

i'm terrible at writing. what happened? i can barely put sentences together anymore... it's terrifying.
anyway, i love max so much :) we haven't spent a day apart in the longest time, and it's not even phasing me. i don't think it's possible for me to ever get sick of him :) haha, which is tough for me to say about anyone.
we'll be in new york a couple of weeks from now
and that's around when my classes end!
i love school
my hair is longer
i can't wait for the sex & the city movie to come out on dvd
and most importantly,i need a good book to read. any suggestions?

caravels @ 2008-07-28T12:57:00

2008-07-28T17:07:27Z

well, i love life. i'll just put that out there.
i LOVE my new school
i LOVE max
i LOVE all my friends
my job.. that's another story. it's not bad though! not bad at all.
i'm really achin to start eating super healthy. not as in cutting calories and all that jazz (but yes cutting calories) my mom is on this organic kick which is lasting longer than any other previous fad she's been sucked into haha. and it's DELICIOUS. i love soy and food products with out high fructose corn syrup.
max and i have stopped eating out so much which has caused me to shed a few pounds on its own. i've gained much weight since we started dating lol :( and we're also using the gym membership i bought him for his bday.

and since graduation, something like 4 girls who were in my class have gotten boob jobs... lol what IS THAT

caravels @ 2008-01-25T19:41:00

2008-01-26T00:41:34Z

i need to stop being such a fucking girl

yes coachella yes

2008-01-23T05:55:30Z

Jack Johnson, The Verve, Raconteurs, The Breeders, Fatboy Slim, Tegan and Sara, Madness, The Swell Season, The National, Animal Collective, Slightly Stoopid, Mum, Sharon Jones & the Dap Kings, Stars, Battles, Aesop Rock, Midnight Juggernauts, Does it Offend you, Yeah?, Minus the Bear, Spank Rock, dan le sac Vs Scroobius Pip, Diplo, Adam Freeland, Santo Gold, Jens Lekman, John Butler Trio, Vampire Weekend, Dan Deacon, Architecture in Helsinki, Sandra Collins, Busy P, Cut Copy, Black Lips, Datarock, Professor Murder, Reverend and the Makers, The Bees, Porter, Rogue Wave, Modeselektor, American Bang, Lucky I Am.

SATURDAY, APRIL 26: Portishead, Kraftwerk, Death Cab for Cutie, Cafe Tacuba, Sasha & Digweed, Rilo Kiley, Dwight Yoakam, M.I.A., Hot Chip, Cold War Kids, Stephen Malkmus & the Jicks, DeVotchKa, Flogging Molly, Mark Ronson, Turbonegro, Scars on Broadway, Islands, Enter Shikari, Calvin Harris, Boyz Noize, Junkie XL, Cinematic Orchestra, Jamie T, The Teenagers, VHS or Beta, Carbon/silicon, Erol Alkan, Yo Majesty!, Little Brother, Bonde Do Role, St. Vincent, Akron Family, MGMT, Institubes DJs (Surkin, Para One and Orgasmic), James Zabiela, Sebastian, Kavinsky, Dredg, The Bird and the Bee, Grand Ole Party, New Young Pony Club, 120 Days, Yoav, Electric Touch, Uffie

SUNDAY, APRIL 27: Roger Waters (“Dark Side of the Moon”), Love & Rockets, My Morning Jacket, Spiritualized, Justice, Gogol Bordello, Chromeo, The Streets, Metric, Danny Tenaglia, Simian Mobile Disco, Booka Shade, Murs, Dmitri from Paris, Autolux, The Field, Linton Kwesi Johnson, Les Savy Fav, The Cool Kids, Sons & Daughters, Sia, Holy Fuck, Black Kids, Black Mountain, The Annuals, Kid Sister w/A-Trak, Man Man, Duffy, I'm from Barcelona, Manchester Orchestra, Deadmau5, The Horrors, Austin TV, Shout Out Louds, Plastiscines, Brett Dennen

caravels @ 2007-12-17T13:09:00

2007-12-17T18:10:42Z

i am completely smitten, i feel like i'm back in 7th grade with a huge ridiculous crush...
i'm not so sure that i like this feeling. haha i can never be happy :/

caravels @ 2007-12-07T23:42:00

2007-12-08T04:47:07Z

i'm so stressed out, about everything. and depressed because of my stress. and then lonely because i haven't a friend to rant to about my stress/depression. i keep reminding myself that i'll be happy once i'm out of here, and in new york and with people who i get along with and who love me. but i just honestly don't think i can wait that long... i've been unhapy for what seems like forever, and i'm not sure i can take much more.

it doesn't help that i'm on my period and my hormones are fucking even more with my emotions. and giving me hot flashes. fuck being a girl.

caravels @ 2007-12-02T23:41:00

2007-12-03T04:45:17Z

i really don't have much to say... it's been like this for quite some time now.

caravels @ 2007-11-27T16:03:00

2007-11-27T21:10:32Z

one of these babies

or this pretty little guy

lots of this stuff

one two

three four

five six seven eight

haha i had so much trouble this year deciding what i wanted :( but i think this pretty much covers it. it's not a lot, the clothes are probably the most expensive thing. i am going to europe in february, so i really don't want much (except the cameras, i MUST have the cameras. even just one. and all that film... mmmmmmmm best christmas evar)

caravels @ 2007-11-19T14:17:00

2007-11-19T19:34:38Z

hello

i feel it obligatory to update this since i haven't in a million years... even though i really don't have that much to update about. work is okay, i do love my job but theres a couple of people i wouldn't mind giving a verbal punch in the fucking face.

school is okay. i'm definitely over my english class, my psychology class is just a fucking joke, environmental science is ridiculously hard (but some fucking how i have a 91??? i don't understand!!!) in fact, the only class i somewhat enjoy is algebra. which is fucking weird considering math is my worst subject. i've already registered for my spring classes so next semester should be much better. i'm taking human biology, human sexuality, humanities; renaissance to modern day, creative writing and a math course. lots of human stuff yay. i'm applying to pratt and nyu next november for the spring semester... we'll see how that goes :|

my social life is okay too. i love my friends, but i'm pretty bored. i thought getting a job would give me a chance to ~broaden my horizons~ but it was pretty foolish of me to think that there was anything better than what i have (at least in spring hill) i did go to new york last week and hung out with jess and andi goddd i really love them, i'm just so anxious to get up there you don't even KNOW.

i'm trying my hardest to get into film photography, and now that i have a job and some $$ it should be a lot easier. i wish there was somewhere i could take a class around here but i live in bum fuck egypt where people buy disposable cameras and then get them developed at walmart. i'm anxious though, i found a bunch of old camears when we were cleaning out my great aunts house in queens (kodak junior six-16 and some polaroid land cameras) and i really wish i knew how to use them :(

alright well that's about it for me... how are all of YOUU doing?

caravels @ 2007-10-29T00:58:00

2007-10-29T04:58:50Z

i'll always be just a friend
yeah, i don't think i'm okay with that!

my mom bought me sunflowers!

2007-10-15T19:56:57Z

and if i seem to be afraid to live the life that i have made in song,

its just that i've been losing so long.

caravels @ 2007-10-08T20:04:00

2007-10-09T00:08:04Z

i have
big hair
a job at starbucks
not gotten much sleep in the past week
an all together boring life

i'm so uninspired lately, to do anything. i haven't even turned on my camera in weeks... i'm in a rut. a boring boring rut. i just want to get out of here, move to new york and hang out with pretty people who love smoking weed and dancing to simon and garfunkel as much as i do.

i'm applying to nyu for next spring. until then, i'm on suicide watch.

caravels @ 2007-09-02T11:20:00

2007-09-02T15:28:22Z

we've been at the beach house since like... wednesday night and i'm sick of it already
and my dogs are making me break out in hives and fits of sneezing

i went to a psychic reader yesterday and she basically just confirmed that my life is as boring as i feel it is

i think today i'll float around in the ocean and get attacked by fish and sunburn.

sept 13 new york again :)!

caravels @ 2007-08-24T23:17:00

2007-08-25T03:18:59Z

sometimes
i think people would like me more
if i never opened my mouth

or maybe if i was beautiful
or maybe if i was far away from them

caravels @ 2007-08-14T02:09:00

2007-08-14T06:11:28Z

oh and the coolest thing EVER!!! jason anderson used a crappy picture I TOOK at his show in december as the cover for his new album ummmm isn't that amazing? i love that man.

caravels @ 2007-08-06T09:03:00

2007-08-06T13:12:26Z

we were, of course, 200 hours early to the airport because of my mom's phobia of missing the plane and then dying i guess, so i'm bored....
listening to

<3333333

drinking

mmmmmmm chai frap <33333

k bye

caravels @ 2007-08-02T13:15:00

2007-08-02T17:32:38Z

this summmer is so dull...
shrooms= no. never ever ever ever ever again. i don't think i've thrown up so many times in my life... anyway
yesterday was the last day of classes. i can't wait to finish. i feel like my life is some big movie production that comes out a year from now, and you don't really know anything about it except for what you see in the 15 second trailers. like i honestly have no idea how it's going to be or how i'm going to be.

i have 200 something pages left in harry potter, and i intend on finishing it today.

caravels @ 2007-07-15T14:06:00

2007-07-15T18:16:19Z

hi babies. how are you? i seriously am never around live journal, and idk why because it's always a sure cure for my boredom (which i've been experiencing a lot lately).

i came back from new york trip pt 1 not too long ago, where my mom and i took a tour of NYU. omg i want to go there SO BAD :( it's gorgeous. and i love that it's right in the village asjdlfksd. i'm the worst person ever at making final decisions, i have no idea what i would major in there. well, i have like 5 ideas but i'm so torn on which to pick. i definitely want to have a fashion related career, but then again i want to be involved in art too? my mom's friend went to nyu and his sister is a prof there (like 3 days of the week) and she teaches teachers how to teach their students how to read? she's put up by the school in this gorgeous brown stone in the village and only works part time for them... so i'm thinking... that is an amazing job. i would love to be an art history or art appreciation prof part time, and then the rest of the time i have no idea. but i do know i want nyu to pay for me to live in a sexy brown stone?? thanks. i'm just so thankful that my tuition for PHCC is totally covered and i'm basically paying nothing to get my associates. i would be in serious debt if i did decide to go to FIT (assholes) and i would have wasted so much time if i was in textile design for a semest. seriously, that was such a joke.

so hopefully this time next year, i'll be accepted to NYU and getting ready to move to new york :') the thing is i'm not sure if i want to apply for fall or spring, i want a break and to space out my classes a little before i jump right back into school. idk.

i head back to new york (with melissa!) aug 6th-? we're not sure yet, maybe the 16th. daft punk is the 9th! i can't wait.

my summer's been alright... i wish more exciting shit would happen though. i don't think anything can top last year. i guess going to new york this much is helping to lesson the suckage that could easily ensue from this summer.

oh yeah and i got my ap results back, i passed my art history test with a 4 :)

caravels @ 2007-07-01T21:08:00

2007-07-02T01:20:50Z

hellooooo live journal, it's been forever since i've updated! my life is pretty good... nothing crazy exciting has happened, as usual. tuesday i leave for trip #1 to new york, and i'll come back the 9th. then i go back august 6th-12th where i'll be seeing DAFT PUNK LIVE!! and melissa is coming with me so yay :) and i get to see andi, so yay x2 :)

view of st. thomas from our balcony

megan's bay beach? in st. thomas

our ship~

sooo this is how all the roads were in the virgin islands, with the occasional giant dinosaur iguana chillin in the middle.

and i decided i'm going to move to st. maarten, learn french, and have sex with all the hot islanders on the french side. mmmmmmm

yeah, that's orient beach in st. maarten and i love love love it. i have more pictures but i'm a lazy bitch.

please update me on your lives?